Yichun

Lied in bed and was reluctant to wake up as a form of escapism from the anxiety of tml's scholarship selection activity. I'm losing concentration in life, happiness and appetite. I feel like I'm wasting my life seeking goals that seem hollow. As much as I tried not to think about it, I can't. Truth is I have extreme phobia of such selection processes. I need some source of guidance and motivation which never came. Despite so many encouragements from friends and family members, I am still over with it and the same old thoughts flooded my naive mind whenever I am invited for an interview or test or activity. I feel frustrated and clueless with myself.